Last night while laying in bed it hit me like a brick wall (at 12mph).

 

I've been running around hookin up with every woman on the face of the planet it seems like searching for something so simple, yet so hard to find. I've been looking for what I had in High School and College in terms of a relationship. A totally carefree, lacadaisical, devil may care kind of relationship. I miss the days when just going walking around the mall was a totally awesome time, no need to impress anyone, just spend time together. Looks didn't matter, because that was your girlfriend and if anyone talked trash, they were gonna get beat down by "me and my boys". Spend an evening hanging at your buddies apartment, drinking beer, diving into the pool from the 2nd story balcony, smoking weed by the pound, laughing about EVERYTHING, and just generally having a good time. Not saying that I want to smoke weed anymore, just I did then and times were good.

 

Now-a-days, everything is too serious. Damn, it's just life folks, why are we stressing about it so damned much? Ya know, everyone dies and you ain't taking a damned thing with you when you're worm food. Just live your life helping anyone you can, as best you can, and if you believe in any sort of an afterlife, well, you'll probably wind up there. If not, well... You're still worm food either way. Stop stressing about stupid **** that you can't take with you anyways. Everyone is going to die, it's just a matter of time.

 

Frankly, I miss those days. And if anyone knows a girl named Erin Esposite (esposito?) from Alabama, tell her I said hey, and give her a hug. She's good people. Kristen Rogers too, she's good people as well.

 

One day I'll find what I'm looking for. I won't settle for anything less. I'm a determined little bastard, I'll tell you that right now. But I do think I'm going to stop hooking up with every woman on the face of the planet, probably not a good idea.

 

I'm not putting this on myspace either. Get over it.